Sometimes I just gotta

Smoke hit my nose and it made me want to puke. I let out a groan as I stretched with my eyes close, my hand skimmed something freezing and a bird coo-ed from somewhere. I opened one eye slowly, some part of my brain was telling me that there couldn't be any birds yet, it was still the thawing of winter. 

   

 My fingers were touching water, it was the bluest I have ever seen. I sat up and opened my other eye and looked around with wide eyes; this was the same place I saw the red haired lady who smelled of huckleberries. I stood up on wobbly legs and held my hands out like a simpleton to make sure I didn't fall. 

 

 I moved my legs slowly waiting for the pins and needles to go away and then stretched my body up to the sky and then looked to the water. I blinked slowly as I took in my reflection. I was wearing that one outfit I found myself in when I was tested by Fin. The gold was bright in the soft light and the headband was now holding back short bangs instead and the birds feathers were longer and even whiter then I remembered. I flicked the water when I saw my swollen face and scowled standing up.

"Stop sending me here!" I cried out to the air and started walking to the west, I needed to do something instead wondering when I fell asleep to go into the Beyond. I held my body tight as I expected him to come out at any moment and make me wake in fear. My one hand went to where he had stabbed me the last time I had a nightmare, it was resting on the soft flesh of my chest. 

I breathed slowly counting my breathes when he started laughing in the distance. I shot to my feet and my body moved quickly as it could. My legs were shaking as I ran and my heart was pounding loudly in my ears, I swore everyone could hear it. My breathing and heart drowned out every other sound so I didn't not hear his foot steps so close. 

"Hello my beautiful monster." He purred and his voice started changing into Malachi's voice. Panic filled my being as he laughed and grabbed my wrists tightly and my eyes met fire and water. I yanked hard away from his grip as my heart filled my throat painfully, he just tightened his grip and an evil grin tugged at his mouth. 

"No! Get away from me!" I cried out and pulled and tugged as I felt his grip bruise me. Soon I was panting and my legs gave out on me. 

"Shh, it's alright my pretty monster." He said and pushed me onto the ground. He stood still and had that sick smile as I got up and didn't stop me as I ran. I ran and ran and ran with for some reason more fear. Betrayal cupped my heart as I cursed him in my mind, I wished that I was never tricked into believing he was a good person or that he wouldn't try and hurt me. 

"You can't get away Fajra, your mine now and ever!" He said laughing darkly and took looping steps and I cursed my short legs. I was pushed onto the ground and he pinned me. Fear beat in my heart as I looked up to his distance face and his hands dug onto my wrist, the only sound was my quick breath and his soft hot exhale. I wriggled and twisted under his grip as panic started to set in.

"GET OFF ME!!!!!" I screamed as tears fell from my eyes and streamed down my face in hot waves and my breath was quicken with more panic.

"Shhh, its no use." He whispered leaning near my face and kissed my jaw lightly, his hot moist breath fanned across my face and my skin crawled . I screamed more as his mouth trailed my body. 

"Help, please. Creators please help your child." I sobbed softly as my body went limp, I could never ever get out of a hold like this. A war cry came from above and suddenly his weight was gone for my body and I was being pulled by small hands like my own. I could make out red hair from my tears and this person told me to work my legs. Some part of me started up my legs and someone else, the one who gave the war cry muttered something and suddenly the ground was gone.

I yelled in panic and the person put his hand over my mouth, I sobbed into the hand and soon I didn't have the energy to sob and then I had no tears left. I looked up to the trees blankly as a heavy feeling pulled me and the world looked dull as my stomach rolled. Someone said something and I was being put down. I blinked slowly at the face above me and I slowly close my eyes and opened them, it seemed to take so much energy to do such a simple thing. 

The one person with red hair moved forward and touched my forehead and said another thing bluntly. The other person at the edge of my vision nodded and I was taken from the ground again, but this time I only closed my eyes as lights swam under my lids as I was pulled deeper into the Beyond.